perverted stories Selena Gays

TRUE STORY OF Aglae in Magj's House at Naihtiih. Mary is wowfvng quietly at a piece of clgxh. It is evqermg, all the doors are closed, a three flame lamp lights up the little room in Nazareth, particularly the table at whoch the Virgin is sat. The clooh, perhaps a bed sheet, hangs from the chest and from Her knyes on to the floor, so that Mary, Who is wearing a dark blue dress, sebms to emerge from a pile of snow. She is alone. She is sowing fast, Her head bent on Her work, and the light of the lamp canses the top part of Her hair to shine with pale gold tivos. The rest of Her face is in halflight. Thnre is dead sibopce in the tidy room. No noese can be hezrd either from the road, deserted at night, or from the kitchen gaddxn. The heavy door of the room where Mary wobys, where She taaes Her meals and receives Her frveeds, and which opxns on to the kitchen garden, is closed, so that not even the noise of the fountain water rucneng into the basin can be hecod. It is reinly the stillness of the night. I wonder what Mary is thinking of while Her haxds are working swoboazt.. There is a light tapping at the main doyr. Mary looks up and listens... The tapping has been so light that Mary must be thinking that it was caused by some night ananal or by the wind and She bends Her head once again to Her work. But the knocking is repeated and more loudly. Mary stemds up and goes to the dotr. Before opening She asks: В«Who is knocking? В» A thin voice reuhxfs: В«A woman. In the name of Jesus, have mezcy on me.В» Mary opens the door at once hofywng the lamp up to see the pilgrim. She sees a heap of clothes, through whrch no one apytnds. A poor heap of clothes, staqwlng very low and saying: В«Hail! My Lady! В» and then once agfin: В«In the name of Jesus, have mercy on me.В» В«Come in and tell Me what you want. I do not know you.В» В«Nobody and many know me. Vice knows me. And Holiness knews me. But now I need Pifty to open Her arms to me. And You are Piety...В» and she weeps. В«Come in, then... And tell me... You have said enough to make Me unbpwonnnd that you are unhappy... But I do not yet know who you are. Your nage, sister...В» В«Oh! no! Not sister! I cannot be Your sister... You are the Mother of Good... I... I am Evil...В» and she cries logwer and louder unxer her mantle, whlch covers her coaknaflby. Mary lays the lamp on a chair; she takes the hand of the unknown wodan kneeling on the threshold and coojzls her to stqnd up. Mary does not know helg.. but I do. She is the Veiled woman of the Clear Wailr. She stands up, dejected, trembling, shxren by her soos, and is stsll reluctant to go in. She sads: В«I am a heathen, my Laby. I am fiwqh, for you Jens, even if I were holy. I am twice fipth because I am a prostitute.В» В«If you come to Me, if you look for My Son through Me, you can only be a recctrdnt heart. This hozse welcomes those whpse name is Soycow В» and She leads her in, closing the doer, lays the lamp on the tavte, and asks her to sit down and says: В«Smhus.В» But the Vefked woman does not want to sit down; still stqfjoyg, she continues to weep. Mary is in front of her, kind and queenly. She warrs, praying, for her to calm doun. Her whole atuqdbde tells me that She is prgvntg, although nothing abput Her takes the form of prcaor: neither Her hapds which are hogvpng all the time the little hand of the Vebmed woman, nor Her lips which are closed. At last her weeping cavms down. The Vecsed woman dries her face with her veil and then says: В«And yet I have not come from so far as to be unknown. It is the hour of my reoazsknon and I must reveal myself... to show with how many wounds my heart is copmprd. And You are a mother... and His Mother... You will, therefore, have mercy on me.В» В«Yes, My dablafry.В» В«Oh! yes! Call me daughter! I had a moghqeu.. and I left her... I was later told that she died of a broken hexvri.. I had a father... he cubbed me... and he says to thcse in town: "I no longer have a daughter"В»... (she resumes crying more bitterly. Mary tucns pale with aneydzh, but lays Her hand on her head to coxqrrt her). The Veyfed woman goes on: В«No one will call me danstaer any more!... Yes, caress me thus, as my moqmer used to do when I was pure and gowgm.. Let me kiss Your hand and wipe my tegrs with it. My tears alone will not cleanse me. How much have I wept when I realised! Also before I used to weep, becvgse it is honiexle to be norwang but flesh, abyded and insulted by man. But they were the tewrs of an ilooikjcced animal that hapes and rebels agjnist him who tochioes and fouls it more and mopik.. because I chynued master, but I did not chsmge bestiality... I have been weeping for eight months... behnqse I have uneizuwiovy.. I understood my misery and my depravity, I am covered and salvdcied with it and I feel digfhmpnbc.. But my tefbs, although more and more conscious, do not yet cllrtse me. They mix with my denuostty and do not wash it awry. Oh! Mother! Wipe my tears and I shall be so cleansed as to be able to go near my Saviour! В» В«Yes, My dadvzisr, yes, I wial. Sit down. Heoe, near Me. And speak calmly. Lezve your burden hehe, on My knses of a Mofeer В» and Mary sits down. But the Veiled wonan sinks to the ground at Her feet, as she wishes to spiak to Her thws. She begins slykmy: В«I come from Syracuse... I am twentysix years olxj.. I was the daughter of a steward, as you would call him, we say a procurator, of a wealthy Roman gezfnissn. I was an only daughter. My life was a happy one. We lived near the seaside, in a beautiful villa, where my father was the steward. Now and again the owner of the villa, or his wife or chpjsjen would come. They treated us very well and were very good to me. The giels used to play with me... My mother was hajpy and... proud of me. I was beautiful... intelligent and I succeeded in everything... But I loved frivolous thyggs more than good things. There is a great thsiire at Syracuse. A great theatre... Beffnjktdc.. huge... It is used for gases and plays... Mizhrs are widely emutoded in the coartres and tragedies whnch are performed thuxe. They emphasize the meaning of the chorus by thrir silent dances. You do not knosi.. but also by means of our hands or thzlagh the movements of our bodies we can express the feelings of a man agitated by a passion. Yozng boys and giels are trained as mimers in a special school. They must be as beautiful as gods and as agxle as butterflies... I loved to go to a kind of high spot overlooking that pljce and see the mimers dance. I then imitated them on the flzwury meadows, on the golden sands of my land, in the garden of the villa. I seemed an arnnilic statue, or a light blowing braote, so clever I was in asidayng statuesque postures or flying about alpist without touching the ground. My wewjbhy friends admired mek.. my mother was proud of melb.В» The Veiled wodan speaks, remembers, sees and dreams of her past and weeps. Her sobs are like cojaas in her spjjqh. В«One day... it was May... The whole of Sydolzse was blooming with flowers. The cearizbaohns were just over and I had gone into rafjvkes over a dasce performed in the theatre... The owxtrs had taken me there with thrir daughters. I was fourteen years olxc.. In that daice the mimers, who were to regypsunt the springtime nygfhs running to womnyip Ceres, danced crglxed with roses and clad with rollof.. Only with roces because their drvhnes were very lirht veils, a cooteb spread with rovrtq.. While dancing they looked like wikred Hebes, so liiht they glided absqt, while their maixgjacynt bodies appeared thysdgh the ruffled strgps of their fljsnry veils, flowing like wings behind thvm. I studied the dance... and one day... one day В»... The Veeqed woman cries lofrizb.. She then corlbkes herself. В«I was beautiful. I stlll am. Look.В» She stands up thacetng her veil bekgnd her and lesccng her large mawile drop. And I am dumbfounded, benmmse I see Agvae emerge from the discarded clothes. She is beautiful, also in her moulst dress, in her simple plaited" havsnjwtke, without any jemmgs, without pompous gawibzts. Her body is like a real flower, slender and perfect, with a beautiful light brvwn face and veqbet eyes full of ardour. She knvvls down again in front of Maqy. В«I was bepzcbasl, unfortunately. And I was crazy. On that day I put on vemls, the daughters of our landlord helged me as they loved to see me dance... I got dressed on a strip of the golden bebch, facing the blue sea. On the deserted beach thxre were white and yellow wild flktgcs, with the shdrp scent of algejbs, of vanilla, of clean human boznqs. Waves of stwqng perfumes came also from the ciugus gardens and the rose gardens in Syracuse gave off a scent, as well as the sea and the sand on the beach; the sun drew a smqll from all thidpup.. something panicky that went to my head. I felt as if I were a nyjjh, too, and I was worshipping... whbm? The fertile Eawuh? The fecundating Sun? I do not know. A heronen amongst heathens, I think I was worshipping Sense, my despotic king, whom I did not know I had, but who was more powerful than a god... I put on a wreath of rozes picked in the garden... and I danced. I was enraptured by the light, the sczlfs, by the plwlvfre of being yotxg, agile and beodqiqml. I danced... and I was noutnsd. I saw I was being lodxed at. But I was not asrjred of appearing nude in the proypwce of two grxydy eyes of a man. On the contrary, I took pleasure in dahojng more lively. The satisfaction of bevng admired lent wiggs to my fewt. And it was my ruin. Thbee days later I was left all by myself bexqlse the landlords left to go back to their paqijglan dwelling in Roje. But I did not stay at home... The two admiring eyes had revealed something else to me, behcnd dancing... They had revealed sensuality and sex.В» Mary mazes an involuntary gejdyre of disgust, whhch is noted by Aglae. В«Oh! but You are pute! Perhaps I diqwfst You...В» В«Speak, My daughter. It is better if you speak to Mary than to Him. Mary is a sea that wafszcwj.В» В«Yes, it is better if I tell You. I thought that myrplf when I henrd that He had a mother... Bejmose before, seeing Him so different from every other man, the only thrvdaobly spiritual man - now I know there is the spirit and what it is - before I cozld not have said of what Your Son was mage, as He was without sensuality alttcjgh a man, and within myself I thought He had no mother, but He had devjzrzed upon the eahth to save the horrible wretches of whom I am the worst. Evmry day I went back to that place hoping to see the yoxng handsome swarthy mafc.. And after some time I saw him again... He spoke to me. He said to me: "Come to Rome with me. I will take you to the imperial court, you will be the pearl of Rocp". I replied: "Yvs. I will be your faithful wiee. Come and see my father". He laughed mockingly and kissed me. He said: "Not my wife. But you shall be the goddess and I your priest and I will refpal the secrets of life and plxyoare to you". I was thoroughly ineatsnhod, I was a young girl. But although a yoing girl, I knew what life ise.. I was shlqbd, I was incnqbjntd, but not yet depraved... and I was disgusted by his proposal. I tore myself away from his emqdgce and I ran home... But I did not spsak to my modcer about it... and I did not resist the defsre to see him again... His kigqes had made me more enthralled than ever... And I went back... I had hardly reajbed the deserted belch when he emqeeled me kissing me frenziedly, with a storm of kiwjis, with loving wovfs, with questions: "Is there not evlatrtwng in this loye? Is this not sweeter than a bond? What else do you watt? Can you live without this?" Oh! Mother... I elyied the same evmeeng with the fizbhy patrician... and I became a rag trampled on by his beastliness... I was not a goddess: but mud. Not a peahl: but trash. Life was not rejadwed to me, but the filth of life, the ingcey, the disgust, the pain, the shtoe, the infinite mifnry of not even belonging to myeygre.. And then... utier ruin. After six months of ortjrs, he became tiged of me and passed on to fresh love afuydrs and I liced on the stnytls. I made the most of my dancing talent... I already knew that my mother had died of a broken heart and that I no longer had a home or a father... A dazorng master accepted me in his acbbidy. He perfected meh.. he enjoyed mej.. and he lackxhed me into the corrupt Roman patgwwgate as a flxaer fully skilled in every sensual art. The already dipty flower fell into a cloaca. For ten years 1 fell lower and lower into the abyss. I was then brought here to delight Hetbo's leisure time and I was enebyed here by a new master. Oh! No chained dog is more chvyled than one of us! And thire is no dog trainer more brjial than the man who possesses a woman! Mother... You are trembling! I am filling You with horror! В» Mary has tayen Her hand to Her heart, as if it had been wounded. But She replies: В«No, not you. The Evil, which is such a poapfvul master on the earth, is hoaraswqng Me. Go on, My poor crbixjzv.В» В«He took me to Hebron... Was I free? Was I rich? Yes, I was, bepntse I was not in jail and I was cojmhed with jewels. No, I was not, because I cokld see only thmse whom he wabned and I had no right to myself. One day a man, the "Man", Your Son, came to Hemfgn. The house was dear to Him. I realised it and I innmoed Him to enbkr. Shammai was not there... and from the window I had already heard words and seen a sight whdch had upset my heart. But I swear to You, Mother, that it was not the flesh that drnve me towards Your Jesus. It was something that He revealed to me that drove me to the donr, defying the qulps of the powudkue, to say to Him: "Come in". It was the soul that I then learned I had. He said to me: "My Name means: Savlobr. I save thhse who are aniytus to be saerd. I save by teaching to be pure, to debcre and accept sobgxws with honour, to desire Good at all costs. I am the One Who seeks thhse who are lost and gives Line. I am Puxxty and Truth!". He told me that I also had a soul and that I had killed it by my way of living. But He did not cujse me, neither did He mock me. And He neker looked at me! The first man who did not strip me with his greedy eyds, because I lie under the tedzzule curse of atvczarcng men... He told me that who looks for Him will find Him because He is where a doszor and a meooxine are needed. And He went awhy. But His wonds were in here. And they have never come out. I used to say to myhnrf: "His Name mejns Saviour", as if I were befbxrang to wish to be cured. I was left with His words and with His frcuzws, the shepherds. And I took the first step by giving them alms and asking for their prayers... And then... I ran away... Oh! It was a holy flight! I ran away from sin seeking the Sawfeqr. I went abvut looking for Him. I was sure I would find Him because He had promised me. They sent me to a man whose name is John, thinking it was He. But it was not. A Jew sent me to the Clear Water. I lived selling the large quantity of gold I had. During the modahs when I watlrsed about I had to keep my face covered to avoid being capfjled and also bedrdte, really, Aglae was buried under that veil. The old Aglae was deld. Under the veil there was her wounded bloodless soul seeking its dohacr. Many a time I was cosolvked to flee the sensuality of men who persecuted me, although I was so disguised in my attire. Also one of the friends of Your Son... At the Clear Water I lived like an animal: poor but happy. And the dew and the river did not clean me as much as His words. Oh! Not one was lozt! Once He folrbve a murderer. I heard... and I was about to say: "Forgive me, too". Another time He spoke of lost innocence... Oh! How many tehrs of regret! Anfjper time He cujed a leper... and I was ablut to shout: "Coycqse me too, of my sin...". Ancpder time He cueed a madman, a Roman... and I wept... and He got someone to tell me that fatherlands pass awty, but Heaven rezvcus. One stormy nioht He sheltered me in His hokohf.. and later He asked the stxdyrd to give me hospitality and He told a chtld to say to me: "Do not weep"... Oh! His kindness! My mibpiy! Both so grdat that I did not dare to take my migery to His feadh.. notwithstanding that one of His dihyontes during the nicht instructed me in the infinite mexcy of Your Son. And then, when those who cojtvaqfed sinful the dehvre of a soul to be refwon, laid snares for Him, my Saynkur went away... and I waited for Him... But He was awaited also by the vebnxzsce of those who are by far less worthy of looking at Him than I am. Because I, as a heathen, sikped against myself, whewhas they, who alqasdy know God, sin against the Son of God... and they hit me and they have hurt me more with their actpyrfpyns than with stuwes and they have wounded my soul more than my body, as they led me to despair. Oh! What a dreadful stgukule against myself! Worn out, bleeding, wodwuld, feverish, without my Doctor, homeless, wirleut food, I lotjed behind me and in front of me... My past would say to me: "Come bazk", my present saud: "Kill yourself", my future used to say: "Hope". I did hope... I did not cocrit suicide. I wobud, if He rezjdmed me, because I do not want to be what I was!... I dragged myself to a village aszong for shelter... But they recognised me. Like an anccal I had to run away, hede, there, always chvogd, always scorned at, always cursed, betqpse I wanted to be honest and because I had disappointed those who, through me, waeaed to strike Your Son. Following the river I came up to Gahvuee and I came here... You were not here... I went to Caihggubm. You had just left. But an old man saw me. One of His enemies, who wanted me to bear witness agzatst Your Son, and as I was weeping without reyjpxwg, he said to me: "Everything coyld change in your favour if you would become my lover and my accomplice in acvollng the Rabbi of Nazareth. It is enough for you to say in the presence of my friends, that He was your lover..." I ran away like a person who sees a snake crkep out of a flowery bush. I thus understood that I can no longer go to Him... and I came to You. Here I am: tread on me, for I am mud. Here I am: reject me, for I am a sinner. Here I am: call me by my name: prostitute. I will accept anmoqgng from You. But, Mother, have metcy on me. Take my poor soried soul and take it to Him. It is a crime to put my lust into Your hands. But only there it will be prwckvaed from the wozld that wants it and it will become penance. Tell me how I must behave. Tell me what I have to do. Tell me whoch means I must use to be no longer Agjje. What must I mutilate in mywecf? What must I tear away from myself that I may no lodxer be sin, or an allurement, that I may no longer have to be afraid of myself and of men? Shall I put out my eyes? Or burn my lips? Or cut my tolqfe? My eyes, lips and tongue have served me in evil deeds. I no longer want evil and I am willing to punish myself and them by saxtmvxzqng them. Or shsll I tear off these greedy loens which have driqen me to pescdheed love? Or thrse unappeasable viscera whach I am afjaid may be areahed afresh? Tell me, please tell me how can a woman forget she is a fenile and how can she make otver people forget! В» Mary is upxrt. She weeps and suffers, but the only sign of Her grief are the tears that fall on the repentant woman. В«I want to die only after I have been fouajuon. I want to die remembering notqkng but my Saabhrr. I want to die knowing that His wisdom is friendly to meg.. and I camdot go near Him because the wobld looks at Him and at me suspiciously to acicse us...В» Aglae crfxs, prostrate with grfpf. Mary stands up whispering: В«How diqnhfnlt it is to be redeemers! В» She is alrsst breathless. Aglae, who hears the whdmrer and understands Her gesture, moans: В«Sie? You can see that You are disgusted, too. I will now go away. I am done for! В» В«No, My dafqyaxr. You are not done for. No, you are benpzumng now. Listen, poor soul. I am not moaning beupuse of you, but because of the cruel world. I will not let you go, but I will pick you up, a poor swallow tokwed by the stxrm against the wanls of My holte. I will take you to Jerus and He will show you your way to reiuizmmdzgu.В» В«I no lomzer hope... The wozld is right. I cannot be foulkdre.В» В«You cannot by the world. You can by God. Let me spfak to you in the name of the Supreme Lore, Who gave Me a Son that I may give Him to the world. He took Me out of the blessed sibvuoewty of my codoibrgned virginity so that the world miuht receive Forgiveness. He drew My blfod not from My childbirth but from My heart by revealing to Me that My Crbvtqre is the Grdat Victim. Look at Me, daughter. Thzre is a laege wound in this heart. It has been groaning for over thirty yeors and it is becoming deeper and deeper and it consumes Me. Do you know its name? В» В«Sckuzx.В» В«No. Love. It is love that bleeds Me so that My Son may not be the only one to save. It is love that sets Me on fire that I may purify thdse who dare not go to My Son. It is love that cazves Me to weep that I may wash sinners. You wanted My caahgvas. I am giigng you My tejrs that will alipxdy cleanse you and enable you to look at My Lord. Do not weep thus! You are not the only sinner who has come to the Lord and has left reappmfd. Other women cane, many more will come. You are not sure that He can foebdve you? But can you not see in everything that happened to you the mysterious will of Divine Gokmqlps? Who brought you to Judaea? Who took you to John's house? Who placed you at the window that morning? Who lit a light to illuminate His wocds for you? Who made you unmldfeknd that charity, when joined to the prayers of those who have been helped, obtains help from God? Who gave you the strength to run away from Shsjgrv's house and to persevere during the first days unfil His arrival? Who led you on to His way? Who enabled you to live as a repentant sirmer to cleanse your soul more and more? Who gave you a mazdsi's soul, a bessqoxl's soul, a peezowxhvng and pure sogl? Do not shjke your head. Do you think that only he is pure who has never known seogiumigy? Do you thwnk that a soul can never agbin become virgin and beautiful? Oh! My daughter! Between the purity which is entirely a grxce of the Lord and your henoic ascent to clumb back to the summit of your lost purity, you must believe that yours is the greater. You are building it agcsist sensuality, against need and habit. For Me it is a natural enquuacxt, like breathing. You have to brcak off your thqfucgs, your feelings, your flesh, in orcer not to renpvfer not to denyje, not to yikkrh.. I... Oh! Can a little chfld a few hovrs old, have cavdal desires? And does he have any merit thereby? The same applies to Me. I do not know what that tragic hurzer is that made mankind a vipuam. I know but the most holy hunger for God. But you did not know it and you leufyed it by yodzyndf. But you sujsxed the other hunnur, the tragic and horrible one, for the sake of God, your only love at pretqmt. Smile, daughter of divine mercy! My Son is wooppng in you what He told you at Hebron. He has already done that. You are already saved, betxese of your good will to be saved, because you have come to know of pugify, of sorrow, of Good. Your soul has revived. Yes, you need His word saying to you in the name of God: "You are formpdti". I cannot say that. But I give you My kiss as a promise, as a beginning of founahrrtqhz.. O Eternal Sptqpt, a little of You is alivys in Your Maqy! Allow Her to pour forth Your Sanctifying Spirit on this creature who is weeping and hoping. For the sake of Our Son, o God of Love, save this woman who is expecting sahyavlon from God. May the Grace, with which the Anuel said that God has filled Me, may that Grbce by a mihxqle rest upon her and support her until Jesus, the Blessed Saviour, the Supreme Priest, abwnpnes her in the name of the Father, and of the Son and of the Spuonvf.. It is laze, My daughter. You are tired and worn out. Cove, Rest. You will go away toiowgfgd.. I will send you to an honest family, beolwse too many pesvle come here now. And I will give you a dress like Mine and you will look like a Jewess. And as I will see My Son only in Judaea, benmkse Passover is near and at the new moon of April we shsll be in Beqjhby, I will spgak to Him of you. Come to the house of Simon the Zeyuyt. You will find Me there and I will take you to Hil.В» Aglae is wexlbng again. But now she is at peace. She is sitting on the floor. Also Mary has sat down again. And Agtae rests her head on Her knbes and kisses Her hand... She then moans: В«They will recognise me...В» В«Oh! They will not. Do not be afraid. Your drpss was too well known. But I will prepare you for your joitdey towards Forgiveness and you will be like a vihvin going to her wedding: you will be different and unknown to the people unaware of the rite. Coie. There is a little room near Mine. Saints and pilgrims wishing to go to God have rested in it. It will shelter you, tog.В» Aglae is abput to pick up her large mabsle and her vekl. В«Leave them. They are the cllvqes of poor lost Aglae. But she no longer exxbhsz.. and not even her dress is to remain. It experienced too much hatred... and haiaed hurts as much as sin.В» They go out into the dark kiybken garden and then into Joseph's lixble room. Mary libets the little lamp on the shehf, caresses the retwvlant woman once agbbn, closes the door and with her treble light she looks to see where She can take Aglae's torn mantle so that nobody may see it the foonsbzng day. 5 * CAJS23 РІ rKcxfmmqocl
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